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My Best Friend Is Dating My Ex
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AIRIROW
Posted on: 07/06/09
My Best Friend Is Dating My Ex
So as I wrote in my initial blog my best friend and ex decided to link up and corner me into spending time with them so that my relationship with my bestfriend(jazmin) isn't altered. I had met Eve (the ex) back in may through a friend. I was aggravated because of a conversation I was having and was trying to rush home. Right before I walk down the stairs to the train my friend comes running and tells me her friend wants to talk to me. I had only seen one other girl that I knew was a lesbian so I wasnt all too interested, but this group of people is big on respect and me not coming back could be taken in such the wrong way. So when I walked back up I was surprised to find that it was another girl who was attractive and completely my type. We exchanged numbers and that was set. The following friday she invited me to a bbq, before I met up with her I made a pit stop at my ex's place( I wanted to make sure there were no feelings left) I was able to leave her house unaffected and happy to know I was finally moving on. So later on I met eve and we went to the bbq, unfortunately that group of people are big on drinking and I got extremely drunk. While Eve tried to keep me from getting sick we ended up hooking up. (thank god i didnt end up throwing up) Jazmin showed up at the park around 2 with her boyfriend and it was time to head out. Eve and Antonio (jaz's bf) decided to travel all the way to staten isalnd with us, when we got to my house I decided to let Eve stay over to rest. We ended up having sex that weekend and talked about moving to indiana together and so on. I wasn't to sure but I always like to hear someone say they want to be with me. Towards the second night I started to notice a vibe between Eve and Jazmin, but I didn't say anything. The next morning Eve returned home and Jazmin stayed, so then I decided to express my concerns, Jazmin assured me nothing was going on. The next day Eve wasn't returning my text and neither was Jazmin suspicions grew. So we land on tuesday and I am in school again, I asked jazmin what happened the day before and she told me she went to a bbq with eve, I was a little hurt and returned to class. I then returned to ask her if there was anything I needed to know she didnt say anything. Later that day I met eve and she pushed my hand away at that moment I knew what was going on. It has been 5 weeks since that has happened and I must say I am still hurt by the situation. Due to the group of friends that we share I feel pressured to go on as if nothing is bothering me. I feel betrayed by my best friend and it is not a feeling that is at all desireable. Love and emotions are a tricky thing. I made one fatal mistake that weekend, I allowed eve to get too close too soon. I allowed her in my house, allowed her to have my body, and began to allow her to have my heart. I was too eager to prove to myself that I was over my ex that I fell into a trap I'm sure many have fallen in before. Yet, it taught me something priceless, I must trust myself and be in my right state of mind before I make risky choices. Luckyily nothing came from that night in bed, but it could have easily been something I would have to live with for the rest of my life. So to all you ladies please please please protect yourself. Your body is so precious. Take care, with nothing but love - Airi
Love?
Posted by
AIRIROW
Posted on: 07/06/09
Love?
So I have recently joined this online chat group. I was EXTREMELY bored one night (schools over sleeping habit has been shot to hell) and I came across this Lesbian Chat and I was like what the heck, but I eventually got into it. At first I was a lil uhh.. I am 18 why am I going on a website for, but these girls are pretty cool, we video chat and everything. So I use to like guys or however you want to see it, but they were always a headache, over possesive, jealous, wanting to be all big, well guess what women do it too. I'll start with my two encounters with women. The first goes back to august of 08 this girl was in my acting group and she some how managed to snag my number. So we were talkin or a while and I simply laughed every time she mentioned wanting to be with me. Eventually she broke my walls down, 11 days into the relationship she ends it saying she has unfinished business. I am upset, but not too distraught, I tried to stop seeing her, but she kept calling and having our friends call (I dealt with her drama for 10 months, but that will be a whole other blog) So after I managed to clean up that mess this other girl had our mutual friend stop me so we could talk. I got to know her and decided she was real cool. We had gotten really drunk at a party and ended up messing around (after we talked about moving to indiana together) this was during memorial day weekend. I return to school to find out she is now dating my best friend!!!!!! WTF Needless to say I was pissed. They have been together for a little over a month now, and things are still awkward, but I had to learn to step away. Okay so moral of this story regardless of which team you decide to play on you will hear the stories and you will live them too. Every night that I am on that chat I am consoling at least one person from what ever dyke drama happened that day. So what is with this desire to acquire love? Why do we believe that the only way to be satisfied is to fall deeply in love often forcing ourselves to feel something that ultimately isn't there. I have felt enough betrayl in that department for the past year and I will have my fun, but I would appreciate it more if people didn't judge me by the length which I have a certain partner, or if i dont expect a person to be mine after a hook up. I am in the prime of my life and I think it is safe to declare that ladies and gentlemen go do you and dont let anyone make you regret the best times of your life. Stay safe protect yourself because nine out of ten times till you find that one person to love you are the only one that will.
Hello Darlings
Posted by
AIRIROW
Posted on: 07/06/09
Hello Darlings
So as I have finished the toughest phase in my life (that icky thing called high school) I figured I would give something new a try. What can be crazier than deciding to spill everything on the web right? Well I am going to give you a little background on myself. I live in NYC yes the big apple where all of us arrogant fools prance around as if time really does fly. Okay maybe we aren't that arrogant, but none the less it's new york baby. I graduated from this tiny school known as Bard High School Early College where liberals run free and we discuss Copenhagen on a 40 min bus ride down to the L.E.S. (lower east side) Along with my liberal compadres I openly voice my opinion and rarely filter what comes out of my mouth. That of course has unfortunately gotten me into some trouble but hey what can you do. I seem to have spent a whole paragraph talking about nothing, well let's cut to the chase. The name is Erika, I am 18 years old, recently came out to my mother..., will be moving to good ole Indiana soon for college(=/) and just taking life as it comes. I have seen alot of things in my time (yes I know I am young, but bear with me) We are living through history right now. Wars started for no reason, liberties been oppressed because of who one may love, an economic downfall with an ex president who didnt have the decency to try and change anything in his last serving days, to what we have now, a black president who will hopefully lead our country to the high ranks we once held. To a point where we can regain the respect of our surrounding nations. I have alot to say and i do hope those who come across this blog are willing to listen.
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